Alloh' muh frunds
So, I found an apartment. Found is a funny word seeing as how it was the only one with a one bedroom that wasn't like 20 minutes away from my job/school. Catch 22, it's also one of the most pricey. About 875 a month before electricity and internet. I'll definitely be moving out for a cheaper one by December, when many more will hopefully open up at ~800 or less. I'm still working part time, and my mom is going to be sending me money to help. I really do regret letting the house get abandoned and letting my sister throw so much away. I thought about Jazzy, the house, and everything in between today. I was so negligent with everything, like in a trance like state of denial and prolonged grief with stress to wrap it all up. I think about how much is changing with myself too. I don't want to sound like I'm logging my mental state like some straight jacket maniac, but hey, I got shit going on. I'm going in and out of panicky frenzy and deluded complacency over the matter, but I should probably be thinking about the actual moving part the most. I'm going to check the room out tomorrow, actually! First floor life, yooooo. I can't let people downstairs ruin my stompy jam out sessions, I haven't danced in like a full year because 1, I'm too embarrassed to do it in front of people, and two, my groove's slipping. That'll definitely be worked on. But on to the other sides, I'm actually kind of excited. This is my first time moving into an apartment and it isn't going to be crap. That whole thing about it being one of the most expensive? There's good reason, it's loaded. I get my own washer and dryer, all kitchen appliances, and plenty of room to go with the 1 bed 1 bath.
I'll have to adjust with going to paycheck to paycheck and keeping up with school though, so of course I'm not feeling that excited for the financial part of moving in. There's just so much money to cover: school, books, rent, groceries, gas, car insurance.. christ.
At least I'm still going to school. So far it's alright. I'm taking summer classes like I said because I need to revamp my GPA and get back into the life. Also I need friends and more cute ladies. I've been keeping my shape for the most part so far, so that's good. Now that I'm getting my one bedroom, who knows what kinda ways to relieve stress I'll discover? lmao.
Come September I'll be trading in my car for a cheaper one too. That's when my dad's money will exit the certificate of deposit, and rather than paying for the full car I've decided to trade it in for a cheaper one, let the difference be sent to the bank and dad's money will pay for the rest. That way we don't have to spend 15k but instead around 8-9k and what's left of that original 15k we were going to spend can be put into both school and rent. I've found some alright cars too for the price. I'm shooting for a stick shift again while I'm at it too. I still have to master that skill.
So much to do, I can't ever catch a break. It's like karma decided to whoop my ass for all those days I sat to myself complaining that there was nothing to do. Suits me right, that's for sure. -..-