Stuck in a really bad rut, worst spot for a long time. I've learned that my sister has been holding my dad's life insurance money and has it to her name, and now apparently her bank "lost" it. Banks don't lose certificates of deposit, and she should've been checking on it anyways. I don't know what to believe, and all I can do is eat up what she tells me. Apparently she's had a meeting with the bank's manager to discuss the missing money and that's the last I've heard. She's been working and just recently had a miscarriage yesterday. I have nothing else but a part time job to cover my school and rent and that's not even 50% enough to cover my monthly expenses. My mom isn't there to really do anything and she's useless to begin with so there's that. I've borrowed enough money from my brother and he doesn't have anything else to spare from covering my mom's flight to Korea, just to survive September. I don't know if the money is in my sister's hands being spent graciously, if a bank employee pocketed it and took off, or the bank just fucked up big time but all I know is that if I have nothing by the end of this month I'm tanked. I've been really, really pissed off that this has happened, and that for all the sticking around I did my senior year I have nothing to show for it. It's been nothing but a slingshot ride, with each pitch getting deeper and deeper. I just got my hopes up too, of being able to get a bachelors, living independently, and moving on with my life. I'm mad enough to know my sister's been holding that money to begin with, and this ambiguity between us is all the more fuel to the fire and uncertainty. I was really looking forward to living again and now I'm back psyching myself up for the big jump into the other side. I've been telling her to just keep 1/4th of the share to cover herself and even moving out of Las Vegas since there's no future for a family there, but all I get is silence. This night tonight she's usually up by now but her phone is off and I'm getting more worried by the minute.
I at least got to play MGSV though, that game is a load of fun, and has helped keep my mind off things until they got this bad. I'm gonna be sad as shit if I have to go before playing Legacy of the Void though, check out the opening cinematic for that, it looks sweet.
Crossing my fingers.